Grace Wrestler

The Grace Whisperer hasn't been blogging here recently. That's not to say that she hasn't been very active elsewhere, though! :) But not here.... So many reasons why, really, but the bottom line has really been that the Grace Whisperer has been struggling... struggling with herself, struggling with God and struggling with the struggling, quite honestly. As Thumper would say, "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all." So I have chosen silence.

Experience has taught me that it's during these times that my faith grows, and I grow as a person. So I don't worry about it so much. I just don't talk about it much either, because I've also found that there's typically two reactions to such revelations. Either I am chastised for my lack of faith (not true!) or people worry about me (not necessary!).

In my christian walk, I have often found myself identifying closely with Jacob, who wrestled with God. As soon as I heard the account about him, I thought, "that is so like me!" I particularly like the part where it describes how God touched Jacob's hip causing him to limp. I am so fond of it because my hip is messed up too!! LOL!! Maybe that's why! :)

At any rate, I do sense myself coming out of the deep funk.... Certain things in life seem to be forcing me out, really, and thank God for those things... the things that keep me from focusing solely on myself... not the least of which is my two little blessings from God Himself.